Monday, April 9, 2012
My Heart's Desire, my favourite food - for when you are old, all you ever think of is what you put inside your mouth and unto your stomach. What you eat matters most.
My favourite food, my heart's desire is BANANAS, I can eat two to satisfy my hunger, CAKES - I like ice-cream cakes chocolates or banana fudge, and ANYTHING to do with chocolates like nutella for bread and this is the BEST BREAKFAST THAT I CAN HAVE. Praise and Thanks be unto God !
I seldom eat chocolates these days but sometimes I munch onto a wafer at a supermarket where I take walks after walks just to ease my sorrow and to quench my thirst for water and snacks. I don't care about my bulging belly as it's not too big and I needed my baby fat to remember my childhood baby motherhood days that I had onced beared.
At times I will just walk out to the supermarket and enjoy a drink with a snack and sometimes I counted my money, if I wanted to save, I would only go for a drink to quench my thirst on jogging.
I love where I stay, it is near the school and a lot of stalls and trucks and sellers do business out there and they sell varieties of food and delicacies. I like to walk and bring my umbrella along just in case it rains. My walking shoes are quite affordable and I don't go for big expensive pairs that costs a fortune.My walking shoes are all from China and China exports a lot of cheap stuff and shoes that are cheap and affordable to buy. My latest black coloured walking shoes which I wear with socks cost only $15.90 and I have enough to get a drink and buy an ice-cream too and I badly needed to buy a pair because my old walking shoes had worn out.
I had loved the Lord ! I am simple. I don't ask for the world, I don't wear make-up. I wear only T-shirts and shorts and long pants and also JEANS. My best attire is a quite expensive BLOUSE to go along with my jeans and I don't wear jewellery and I carry my wallet inside my pants pocket and a hankerchief to wipe my eyes. I always bring my IC along with me and my other credentials. My cash flow is adequate for a solo only because my mother provided for my well-being only because I am her precious daughter. I am a filial daughter by nature. I used to spend on my sons well-fare before, when I was still married to my husband but my children are very spoilt and selfish and they asked for a ransom. I could not afford to buy for my children ALL the things that they like because they always chose the expensive type.
I love my children a lot and would spent the world on them but sometimes I could not afford to buy for them and THEY ARE SPOILT. I couldn't train them well because my Mandarin is not so good as I am English and Malay educated. So I leave them unto their loving father and their grandma to talk Chinese to teach them the facts of life and the rules of nature. I could only pray for them now as I am living far away from them. But their school life had already been pre-arranged and all their transports are being provided and taken cared of for and I have no worries unto them. Except I am scared that their grandma might sometimes knocked them on their heads with her knuckles or beat them up. I don't like this HABIT of the grandma and I HATE HER FOR IT. But I prayed that the Lord will see them through and may the Lord be with them in times of sorrow or discomfort. The grandma is a luxury grandma and would NEVER work without ENJOY!!!!!!!!
I wish and pray that my children's well-being are well taken cared of for and they eat well and sleep well. They are growing up children and I prayed that the grandma will provide good adequate food for those growing up children ! I have NO MONEY to fend for them but my prayers are always with them! If I am with them right now, I would use my WORKING MONEY and buy the BEST FOOD for them in town and quenched their hunger and desire but let NOT them be SPOILT!!!!!!!
MAY THE LORD ATTEND TO THEM WELL UNDER THE HANDS OF THE WICKED GRANDMA! God Bless them and I loved them all eventhough they don't. Their minds had been blocked from being blessed. And I had mistakenly created a bad rapport unto myself which I could hardly erased. My boys had been misinterpreted and misguided and misled. I don't know how to explain it to them but when they ask me the question again in the future when they have grown up, I will answer them with my own words. I know that God will definitely give me the strength.